Oh,
how I would love to be sprinkled with gold dust. And I’m not using gold to
describe dust that resembles the glistening yellow embers that resembles it. I
mean gold. Like Mariah Carey who gets real gold crushed into a mixture of a
skin tone that will later be spray tanned onto her flesh.
Like
that.
But
you know what? I know where I could accomplish said deed. Santa Marta, of
course. I mean, Paternostro said, “Everyone got sprinkled with Santa Marta gold
dust.”
So
we’re just going to have to trust her.
Nah,
I actually really liked that phrase. Yes, by gold she means money in duffel
bags transported via boats, but that doesn’t take away the beauty it signifies.
Almost as if Santa Marta in all its paradise wonder will leave a footprint in
your mind and memory forever. Like gold dug in the deep confines of the earth’s
soil, it will be stuck forever in your conscience. I just loved it.
But
speaking of gold, Silvana describes a scene in which “Ruben was pouring out
$150, 000 in cash that had been left in a duffel bag outside their hotel room.”
This takes place in la Guajira. This bag, along with many others, would later
be stuffed into boats to be sailed away. What got to me was that the duffel bag
was left there by a screaming guy shouting, “bathe in it, let it touch you.”
Almost as if money could caress the soul. Almost as if money can rule your
life.
It
can.
And
that is a factor of Colombia’s violence today. People who need to survive and
barely make a living who are offered money in return for trafficking drugs,
joining las FARC, etc. It happens.
I was
actually pondering the man and the suitcase outside his hotel room and I
remembered when I was in Santa Marta, in front of a sailing port as well, when I
found twenty books (I counted) lying on the public bathroom sink. Perfcetly
stacked up and in english. I waited until after the boat trip to
check if their presence wasn’t due to a person’s forgetfulness, and when I saw
them again, beckoning to me, I took four of them.
I
should go to jail.
Ah,
but they were forsaken, isolated in the unhygienic confines of a public
bathroom?
What
would Jesus do?
Any
who, besides that interesting fact, Paternostro later talks about La Violencia
and las FARC’s documents on the era, when she came upon texts that spoke of the
details of that history. “ The rebels
history lesson reads like a gory film: “pregnant stomachs were opened with
knives,” “men skinned alive and tied to ant colonies”; “others with their
genitals inside their mouths”; “or with their tongues hanging from their
chest.” I can’t read anymore. I do not know where to file this information, in
my brain or in my heart.”
I can imagine a fetus
being ripped with all other insides that a woman’s body has to offer.
Intestines, liver. How beautiful. Then I think of the killer ant documentaries I
see of crawling creatures that kill whole babies. Don’t ask me how. And while
those thoughts line up in my head I find that I myself can’t bear to keep on
reading that information. And that’s when I now that the pathos is just right
in the nauseating and yet sad feeling washing me.
Finally
she manages to make me feel something.
They
weren’t even her own words.
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